I’ve been busy today. I had some writing work to finish up and then long overdue tidying in my house to take care of. It’s difficult to even string those last couple sentences together. As I usually do when I’m trying to keep up a blog streak but too tired to focus, I’m re-posting a blog entry from my Corbin Creations blog archives. Re-reading it I feel that it rings very true for where I am in my life right now. The sand in the hourglass slipped by far too quickly today but trying to grasp it is futile, it’s happier being free to flow.
Holding Sand – 1/29/2013
I adore being on a warm beach. I’m not one to sit out in the sun all day tanning because I believe in being pale and healthy. When I’m at the beach I’m well covered in sunscreen and my toes are in the water. As cliché as it may sound, one of my favorite activities is walking along the beach. Nothing compares to strolling in the shallow waves enjoying the feel of the sand beneath my bare feet. There’s just something beautifully calming about walking on a surface that softens gently beneath me as warm water flows over my toes and ankles.
As anyone who has ever walked on a beach knows, the incoming tide will inevitably wash away all traces of footprints. When I walk in the shallow water my prints are nothing more than indents in the sand below the surface and my passage is quickly forgotten by the ocean. Sometimes I’ll stop, crouch down and pick up a handful of wet sand just to feel it in my hand. It is impossible to hold sand for very long because it falls swiftly from the grasp. Sand of the perfect dampness to create sandcastles will hold its shape for a while but as it dries it crumbles, if the waves do not destroy it first.
Sand has long been used to gauge the passage of time because it flows so swiftly and free. Trying to hold onto sand is a futile endeavor because it is not meant to be trapped. The tighter the grip on it, the faster it escapes, but if you leave your palm open and have just a small pile there, it will remain a while longer. Warm beach sand sparkles in the sunlight and is smooth to the touch and it is happiest when left where it came from. The only way to truly hold sand for any length of time is to transform it into something else. Intricate glass creations can be created when sand is heated and blown by skilled craftsmen.
There is no holding onto true, free, unaltered sand and it is best to remember this. Sometimes holding something even tighter just makes it slip away faster. By opening your palm and allowing something to be as it is you grant it freedom and sometimes in that freedom it will willingly form itself into something that you can in fact grasp. You cannot predict when certain things and people will slip from your grasp. That is a good thing because then when they choose to return as something attainable, it is a blessed and surprising gift.